About 10 years ago I had a decision point put in front of me. The details are not important, but the upshot was life of good vs. evil. I know more than a few people that would have (and did) chosen evil, but I chose not to be there.
Do I regret the deision? Sometimes. Do I mourn the life I might have had? Not really.
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Wow! Heavy stuff, first thing Monday morning.Ten years surely brings some perspective to the decision and the consequences. It’s a good thing that you are satisfied with the road you chose, I’m sure that you are aware of some other people who took the other fork in that road and apparently seem to have had agreeable results. You’ll never know what the ultimate reward or failure is for them. You’ll only be able to judge whether or not you are satisfied with things as they turn out for you. The odd thing is that you can identify a specific time and/or incident that was the focal point of the decision. Most of our life practices are the result of a series of little things, like tapping the guy ahead of you in line at the register and telling him he dropped the ten dollar bill, instead of picking it up quietly and putting it in your pocket. If it were several hundred dollar bills it becomes a major decision, but the ten dollar decision is habit forming, one way or the other. Or the choice to assume that most other people are well intentioned, rather than operating from the perspective of certainty that everyone is out to take your well being away from you. If you’re secure in who you are, and what you believe in for core values, then the decisions reveal themselves as positive or negative if we pay attention. The hard part is when we are confused as to what we hold to be core value. It sometimes is obscured by our immersion in the depth of the life struggle or by the influences trying to lead us one way or the other. The high road is often very unappealing at first glance and the low one might be very appealing, and so, we make mistakes. I guess we can only have some faith in our best intentions and work like heck to overcome the consequences of the wrong turns.That’s more than enough pontificating for any Monday morning. I’m happy you chose to go forward on the High Road. I’ll continue to pray that you’re granted the grace to see where it goes.